yeah, i don't know what i was thinking. it was all a little too good and calm for a while. i had called a doctor last week and for the first time, in a couple weeks or so, had breathed in a deep breath. i found a doctor and he is a specialist in what i needed him to be. he is world renowned for his methods in treating this and that, AND he had a good bedside manner. AND he worked in a hospital and had medical technology on his side. he was so good, in fact, that he was booked 6 months out. but while i was on the phone with his nurse, he had a new patient cancellation! i hadn't thought a thing about it since then.
then today...well...i got a call that there was an emergency and he wouldn't be able to see people for 2 weeks, so this was a notification of my cancellation. i talked to the scheduler and unfortunately, at this time, the first appointment that he has now is January 20th.
there are a couple reasons why this doesn't work in my land...they may seem little and petty, but really, they are important to me.
1. my surgery would be covered by insurance if i have it this year. i don't have money to cover this next year.
2. i'll be on break from school from December 7th to January 11th. i do NOT want to be recovering from anything during school/work. i can barely keep afloat without that in the mix....
so, i'm still waiting for a call from the other guys nurse...not expecting craziness, but maybe she'll have a good referral for someone else. apparently, this hospital is really high in the women's health department, and none of the docs have openings before the end of January.
it'll be o.k. again. i know, i'll find someone great. but until then, i'm having to remind myself to take deep breaths
slackerific
i got through this weekend realizing that i have no idea what i did. i sat around for a full day on Saturday. I had yesterday to really get a jump on a last assignment for school...but didn't. then i realized today, that i didn't feel bad about it. in fact...i felt pretty relaxed.
i realized that this is the first year, I haven't gotten the tree up in this weekend...but that's o.k. there's always next weekend, except i have to study for my final in there too, i guess.
really, all this to say, school is non-existant, right now. it probably shoudn't be, but it is. it's actually a shock when i realize that i need to go to class every once in a while, because it seems so not important. i know it is, and i'll get through and do it well, but for now....i'm kind of done. i'm turning in a paper a week early, i have a presentation tomorrow, then i have an assignment and need to finish my shadowing.
i can't wait til i'm done and even though i know that some not-so-pleasant things lie ahead for break, i'm good with that.
it won't be this crazed mess that's been going on since i started school...so it will all be good
i realized that this is the first year, I haven't gotten the tree up in this weekend...but that's o.k. there's always next weekend, except i have to study for my final in there too, i guess.
really, all this to say, school is non-existant, right now. it probably shoudn't be, but it is. it's actually a shock when i realize that i need to go to class every once in a while, because it seems so not important. i know it is, and i'll get through and do it well, but for now....i'm kind of done. i'm turning in a paper a week early, i have a presentation tomorrow, then i have an assignment and need to finish my shadowing.
i can't wait til i'm done and even though i know that some not-so-pleasant things lie ahead for break, i'm good with that.
it won't be this crazed mess that's been going on since i started school...so it will all be good
deals, deals, deals
I know that not everyone takes the time, or really cares to save money, like I do. but to me, it's a big deal when i can save 25% on something, or get something for free. we don't live like we are broke, because we are not, but we are careful....so careful with our money. to me, if it takes an extra few minutes to look up a code for something....it's worth it.
I'm in need for some winter clothes and i love me some argyle prints. on anything. just so happens, oprah waved her magic wand and deemed the sweaters at New York and Co. the "it" thing of the season. they have had them on sale and i've been hemming and hawing about buying a couple of them. until today, there was just too much temptation and i gave in. they have a 50% off everything on their site today. it's ridiculous. I would show you what i bought, but apparently in my excitement, I crashed their site. Anyway, I bought a couple of sweaters...originally, they are $46.00. so, i bought two. if I would have been thinking more "crafty-like" you see, I could have ordered another sweater or something else, and also used the $35 off a purchase of $75 or more...voila. lots of stuff. i'm actually going to call them and see if I can change my order.
another thing i did was go to the victorias secret site. we found some gems when we were in MN, meaning bras that actually do what they are supposed to do, if you get my drift. the things are usually about $46.00. I bought one and used a 25% off coupon that I found, plus two other codes that got me free underware. so, all that, only 30 something dollars. so, at VS, i used three coupon codes, all looked up at the same site and all worked. it just takes a little tetris-like skill to see which ones go with what.
I always to go retailmenot.com. you type in the name of the store you are "shopping" at and it will come up with codes that you may use for that time. they have some, that are less successful than others, or some that have expired, but hey, most of them work, and i think it's totally worth it.
I'm in need for some winter clothes and i love me some argyle prints. on anything. just so happens, oprah waved her magic wand and deemed the sweaters at New York and Co. the "it" thing of the season. they have had them on sale and i've been hemming and hawing about buying a couple of them. until today, there was just too much temptation and i gave in. they have a 50% off everything on their site today. it's ridiculous. I would show you what i bought, but apparently in my excitement, I crashed their site. Anyway, I bought a couple of sweaters...originally, they are $46.00. so, i bought two. if I would have been thinking more "crafty-like" you see, I could have ordered another sweater or something else, and also used the $35 off a purchase of $75 or more...voila. lots of stuff. i'm actually going to call them and see if I can change my order.
another thing i did was go to the victorias secret site. we found some gems when we were in MN, meaning bras that actually do what they are supposed to do, if you get my drift. the things are usually about $46.00. I bought one and used a 25% off coupon that I found, plus two other codes that got me free underware. so, all that, only 30 something dollars. so, at VS, i used three coupon codes, all looked up at the same site and all worked. it just takes a little tetris-like skill to see which ones go with what.
I always to go retailmenot.com. you type in the name of the store you are "shopping" at and it will come up with codes that you may use for that time. they have some, that are less successful than others, or some that have expired, but hey, most of them work, and i think it's totally worth it.
another one
so, a friend that have mentioned earlier this week,called. she left a message.
it went something like this:
"hi, just calling to see how you are doing, wanted to see what was being removed and when you are in the hospital. call me back, don't worry, it's not detrimental."
it's not detrimental? after throwing this around in my head for a bit, i guess it was maybe the intent to say, "it's not urgent" or something. but, the whole thing left me confused.
don't worry though....it's not detrimental
it went something like this:
"hi, just calling to see how you are doing, wanted to see what was being removed and when you are in the hospital. call me back, don't worry, it's not detrimental."
it's not detrimental? after throwing this around in my head for a bit, i guess it was maybe the intent to say, "it's not urgent" or something. but, the whole thing left me confused.
don't worry though....it's not detrimental
conversations
this weekend we were at a restaurant. we were there with many people, had moved around because lots had left and when I sat down, i noticed this dish of stuff in front of me, in a little ramekin.
me: ewww, what's that?
t: I don't know, it was here when i sat down
me: sick....(after a pause)....it looks like maple syrup.
t: yeah, i don't know WHAT that is.
guy: it's a jew
t: it's WHAT?
guy: it'a a jew.
t: oh.
guy: i think that people put it on french dip sandwiches.
by this point, i'm laughing so hard on my insides, i cannot keep it together. i, very sneakily, act like i'm laughing about something else, but i just can't stop. as a matter of fact...i still can't
me: ewww, what's that?
t: I don't know, it was here when i sat down
me: sick....(after a pause)....it looks like maple syrup.
t: yeah, i don't know WHAT that is.
guy: it's a jew
t: it's WHAT?
guy: it'a a jew.
t: oh.
guy: i think that people put it on french dip sandwiches.
by this point, i'm laughing so hard on my insides, i cannot keep it together. i, very sneakily, act like i'm laughing about something else, but i just can't stop. as a matter of fact...i still can't
decisions....
i have to make a choice today. i am hoping to keep putting it off, but that's not really working in my favor....SO, i need to choose another doc today. i have a couple choices that have been recommended to me.
1. female doc, in smaller town, in practice for 12 years. good reputation, knows her stuff, been told our personalities will "mesh" well.
2. male doc, in Denver, in practice for 31 years. good reputation, known for getting unpregnant people to be pregnant.
now, i will say that my track record with female docs is not on the good side...my fear with the male doc though, is that he's old school. and he's in denver. denver means a good, longer ride home afterwards.
1. female doc, in smaller town, in practice for 12 years. good reputation, knows her stuff, been told our personalities will "mesh" well.
2. male doc, in Denver, in practice for 31 years. good reputation, known for getting unpregnant people to be pregnant.
now, i will say that my track record with female docs is not on the good side...my fear with the male doc though, is that he's old school. and he's in denver. denver means a good, longer ride home afterwards.
i had a fight with my doctor
i was waiting for my results yesterday and waiting, and waiting. finally, after some gentle prodding, by me, the doctor called. she said, that yes, it was what they thought, they need to remove stuff..blah, blah, blah. before i even had a chance to say anything, she jumped into, "i really think it would be silly for you to have this at the ER....i mean, i do them there, but UGH, what a waste of a day!". i was quiet, because i didn't want to react out of line...but then i said, "I don't really trust what you are telling me".
she stuttered around and asked why and i told her a variety of things that were on my mind. the fact that she had told me that it may be mildly uncomfortable, yet most people that i had talked to have cried through the entire procedure. that she lost a tool in the middle of a procedure that she claims is done "all the time" in her office. that instead of explaining why the said tool was needed in this case and not others, we sat there in silence while her poor new nurse, frantically turned drawers upside down to find it. she apologized and then i asked for her to give me my records. she made sure i knew that i had to take care of this ASAP and that it's important and if i go to someone else, to let her know, because she is legally bound that i take care of this.
5 minutes later i get a call from the above poor nurse. she is almost in tears and is explaining to me how sorry she was, but that she was new, she used to be in internal medicine, she had never used that tool before. i interrupted her in her speech. "this is NOT your fault", i said. i understand that things like that cannot be helped, but i explained to her that some explaination of this would have been a very soothing thing to hear at that time. the fact that no, i am likely not my calmest at that doctors office with everything out for everyone to see and it made the situation even more unnerving. i assured her that she was not at fault.
about a couple hours later, i get a call from the doctor...who apparently needed to then fight with me on the phone. without saying hi, she went into a tirade, "you said that it would have been helpful if i would have explained what was going on." i replied yes, it would have. "well, how would i know that? i'm not a mind reader. it's your responsibility as a patient to tell me if you don't know what is going on.".
i like to ponder that sentence over in my head from time to time and how frickin ridiculous it sounds. i explained that i would have loved to ask her why her staff was having to look in picture books for a tool that, in my head, they used everytime that someone had one of these procedures, but ya know....sorry, in the midst of all the things that were going on, i just couldn't get my words out to form the question. we hung up. i don't think that she is expecting a call back.
she stuttered around and asked why and i told her a variety of things that were on my mind. the fact that she had told me that it may be mildly uncomfortable, yet most people that i had talked to have cried through the entire procedure. that she lost a tool in the middle of a procedure that she claims is done "all the time" in her office. that instead of explaining why the said tool was needed in this case and not others, we sat there in silence while her poor new nurse, frantically turned drawers upside down to find it. she apologized and then i asked for her to give me my records. she made sure i knew that i had to take care of this ASAP and that it's important and if i go to someone else, to let her know, because she is legally bound that i take care of this.
5 minutes later i get a call from the above poor nurse. she is almost in tears and is explaining to me how sorry she was, but that she was new, she used to be in internal medicine, she had never used that tool before. i interrupted her in her speech. "this is NOT your fault", i said. i understand that things like that cannot be helped, but i explained to her that some explaination of this would have been a very soothing thing to hear at that time. the fact that no, i am likely not my calmest at that doctors office with everything out for everyone to see and it made the situation even more unnerving. i assured her that she was not at fault.
about a couple hours later, i get a call from the doctor...who apparently needed to then fight with me on the phone. without saying hi, she went into a tirade, "you said that it would have been helpful if i would have explained what was going on." i replied yes, it would have. "well, how would i know that? i'm not a mind reader. it's your responsibility as a patient to tell me if you don't know what is going on.".
i like to ponder that sentence over in my head from time to time and how frickin ridiculous it sounds. i explained that i would have loved to ask her why her staff was having to look in picture books for a tool that, in my head, they used everytime that someone had one of these procedures, but ya know....sorry, in the midst of all the things that were going on, i just couldn't get my words out to form the question. we hung up. i don't think that she is expecting a call back.
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